a : omission of occurrence or performance; specifically : afailing to perform a duty or expected action <failure to pay the rent on time>
b (1) : a state of inability to perform a normal function<kidney failure> — compare heart failure (2) : an abrupt cessation of normal functioning <a power failure>
c : a fracturing or giving way under stress <structuralfailure>
a : lack of success
b : a failing in business : bankruptcy
I had a job interview with the local zoo, when I was called to set up the interview it was for guest service relations and some cash handling. No big deal I have been working with the public for 10 years, worked at a theme park for 5 years, ran cash registers trained people how to use the cash registers as a manager at two different Ski resorts. I thought I had this made. And I was so excited because it was with a zoo. I love animals so much that I wanted to steal a Dik-Dik. Because I want one.
I didn’t get the job because I couldn’t solve a math problem fast enough. WHAT?
Yup. I didn’t have enough experience and math skills they were looking for. Mind. Blown. Hi. Resume, look at it. See my qualifications no didn’t see anything? Me either. Thanks.
I left feeling so defeated like I wanted to lay on the hot sweltering ground and cry so much. No. I didn’t cry for once after a rough day. I went home and went about my day like nothing happened. Its a live and learn thing. After some strong cocktails I went to bed and slept. I didn’t want to lay there all night thinking about random things then to be up all night listening to my boyfriend snore. I got up this morning, helped Auntie scrub walls and applied to a server position with one of the local Applebees. I am not saddened by the thought anymore to go back serving. I am just not. I have not given up hope that I wont have a job that I want but I also now have more of a drive to go back to school for something I want now. I didn’t fail. I tried something. I gave it a shot. I means I was brave enough to do so. I have not failed at life. I am living and learning. So you can only learn so much and live right? Perfect.
So today its back to the grind of applications and I can keep sending out my resume to places it means I am doing it. I am staying positive today and nothing is going to bring me down. Nothing. Just want to have a nice long talk with my boyfriend when he gets home from work because he is acting strange today and I hope everything is ok…unless that is in my head too. But. Such is life.